I think I might change my e-mail settings and my diary.
I wanna write so many things in here and unleash my secrets
but I feel I can't.
I pretty much know only 2 people read this..Chris and
So I guess I can leave it.
Ok as for the last couple of days this huge cloud of
depression has swallowed me whole.
I feel like killing myself.
But I won't do it.
Thats the difference between ME and someone else.
They feel it and do it.
I just feel it, which sucks!
Cos I feel like thats the only way to make it stop and I
WON'T do it though.
Mike asked me what was the matter. I told him it was a
He looked worried.
Now thats kind of a first.
I'm listening to Drowning by the Backstreet Boys.
I feel like killing them all.
That right there should say how depressed I am.
I LOVE the BSB. But right now I wanna die, so this song
isn't cheering me up!
My mom has all the x-mas decorations up and I relized how
petty my life is.
Weird I know.
I mean I'll die...people will remember me ( hopefully ) for
a little while, but after they die then I'll just be another
corpse taking up room in the dead motel.
See what we ALL have to look forward to ?
Ok enough from me. I gotta go and do something.