misfitmurf

reject all-american
2001-11-27 23:19:36 (UTC)

here we go again

well today was a regular day, but certain things made it
above average....i still have that god damn chemical
warfare thing due tomorrow and i haven't even started on
it!!! i need to get my ass in check! hehehee.....nayways i
talked to an old friend today, which was the most wonderful
thing i could ask for.....becasue he is the one person i
used to feel understood me at tiems.....im not sure about
now, because he could have changed but i still feel real
comorfortable with him. it was funny because he still
means alot to me despite the past 6 months i have not
talked to him. i jsut feel like im setting my self up to
get crushed again adn shit....thats what i dotn' need!
what i am goign to do different this time is try nto to get
my feelings involved because last tiem i did they were all
unrequitted, adn there is nothing worse than feeling like
you love someone who doesn't love you back, but this time
im jsut going to see what happens. ive wasted too much
time in life as it is. but i do admit that it was great
talkign to someone who is different like me, i mean here at
college there are all clones who look the same, dress teh
same, who pretty much are teh same, all my little gutter
punks are back at home.....but i can't lie, i really did
miss my friend and hope he knows i still care about him
becaue once you care about someone its hard to let that go,
and even though he probaly doesn't give a rats ass wether
im alvie or not, i still care.......




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