writings on the wall
2001-11-27 16:42:38 (UTC)

Life is so unfair!

I was chatting online wif my best online guy friend and we
started talking about sex. I told him that he was making me
wet by describing his sexual encounters with his gf and we
started to have cybersex. I used to have a crush on him
when I was 16 because he used to be so sweet to me. One
thing lead to another and soon, we were having phone sex...

He had a sexy voice and I was turned on. He told me how
to touch myself and soon i was putting a finger up my
asshole. I was moaning so loud that I was wondering if the
maid next door could hear me but who cares as long as I am
enjoying myself? I also tried thrusting 4 fingers up my
pussy at the same time. I knew that he was masturbating at
the other end too and the thought of it just turns me on...

He mad me feel so wanted and for an instant, I didn't
think about Stanley at all. Then today, we were having
cybersex and he begged me to let him hear me moan so we had
phone sex again. I was toying with the idea of having sex
with him in real life and he was too but after our phone
conversation, he told me that he doesn't think that he can
do it. He felt guilty about it and even think that we
should stop our phone sex thingy.

I was so damn hurt. He was the one who coaxed me into
it and now that I am beginning to love it, he's backing
out. I felt so used, just like the way I felt when Stanley
and I broke up. Are all guys out there like this? Being
nice to gals so that they can screw them and leave them
after tat???