sex kitten

life of a porn star
2001-11-27 00:37:09 (UTC)

booty call

i just got home from wrk and i am sitting in front of my
computer waiting forthat special somone to come on lol. my
headis spinning tnight and i think i could use some
expression.
FIRST TOPIC-greg-supposedl we are together but i never
get to see him bci am grouned. but even if did get to see
him i dont really like him all that much. i would brak up
with him but i really dont ned the dama. its so confusing
bche doesnt call me or ne thing so mabey e doesnt care
either.
then there is the ever so stressful topic of my wanna
be soulmate, jared. i hardyever get to talk to him ne mor
ad i miss our old long talks. in all honesty i think that
he is the type of person that i couldhve a healthy and real
realtionship with. but idunno how good i wouold be for him
and he s already happy with his gf. its still frustating
though bc i really admire him. i love being his friend but
he is so involvedith his gf that he never talks to me
online ne more. sigh
next thing is kinda a minor thing inthe back of my
mind. i still think about matt. grr. WE BROKEUP A YEAR AND
A HALF AGO. itssostupid but he always pops up now and
agian.it really mean that i just wantto be with someone
that makes me happy. i still could kick my own ass for
ruining things with tom. hewas so hott and there was
potntial there. but that was also 2 months ago and we
havent talked since...sigh
currently i am grounded for life-hence my social life
is at a standstill and i am climbing the walls here. there
is notin new to really be excited about and i really need
something o get my mind of all the nothing tha is going on.
i think i need a good booty call lol