davidraney

Here I am again. I rarely use..

Here I am again. I rarely use my diary now unless
something is really bothering me. I haven't had the time
to think muchless write in here. I think I should write in
it because it does make me feel better. Kim and I are
doing well. We still are disagreeing on how we feel and
our plans in life are changing sometimes hers ato fit mine
and mine to fit hers. I really care about her. Sometimes
a say things that hurt her feelings and I don't really mean
them. I guess I am scared and am under a lot of stress.
Heck I am 21 and I don't know what I want to do with my
life. Kim is like a medicine that makes me feel better,
and she is the only medicine I take. Yesterday was the
first day I haven't been busy in a while and I had time to
think about things. To tell you the truth I am reall
disappointed with my life. I am depressed. I don't know
where I am going. Would someone please turn on the light?
Or slap me in the fuckin head and wake me the hell up.
Sometimes well most of the time I worry. My dream is to be
happily married a have a little girl. On the otherhand if
I don't figure out what I want to do then I will never
fulfill my dream. Maybe i am a nobody.