Squeeb's world
2001-11-25 15:51:51 (UTC)

I'm a loser baby...

So why don't ya kill me? That song just popped into my head.
Don't ask. I'm in a weird mood. Kim's still not back yet. I
figure maybe around five or so. I guess that's ok cuz it'll
give me sometime to work on my genogram paper and try and
get that done. I did quite a bit on it yesterday plus did my
family reconstruction reflection. Then I called Amanda, my
roommate from last year and talked to her for almost an hour
and a half. I miss her. And she's like one of the only ones
that knows about my whole Kim-insecurities thing so I was
telling her about that and she was trying to make me feel
better. It's just that, you know with Jess going AWOL and
now Kim going so distant, I feel maybe there's something
about ME. Like I'm unworthy of their friendship or
something. And I was thinking that I have been so
self-centered lately and maybe that's what's up. I mean Kim
asked me to go without the Internet for a week and I said
"No way" because I didn't want to miss out on talking to
S when I just got him back. But hell, I hope she doesn't get
the wrong idea because when it comes right down to it, I'd
pick her over him anyday. I dunno what else to do. Grrr.
The Grey Cup is on today so I'll watch that. It's the
only day of the year I'll actually voluntarily watch
football. Other than that, I can't stand the stuff. But it's
been a tradition for as long as I can remember to watch the
Grey Cup so I will. Anyways I should go get my laundry and
get some work done.

Current mood: down on myself
Current music: "No Sugar Tonight" on the Wolf