artsy-girl

my adventures
2001-03-28 06:42:25 (UTC)

I keep thinking that the days..

I keep thinking that the days will get better or easier or
something as time goes by, i guess that's really naive of
me. art school is so ridiculous, basically we waste our
money to learn things we could read about in books and then
get out of school to do what? maybe i'll just roam the
earth or something. all my friends are really depressed
too which doesn't make things easier. oh well. at least
things are good in some areas. doug and kevin are still
really happy together which is great because i was getting
worried there for a while. since i set them up there have
been lots of ups and downs i wasn't expecting. kevin seems
so put together when you meet him, only to find out he's a
complete mess sometimes. he gets really bitchy and whiny
when he doesn't get his way and then doug gets all pissed
cuz he doesn't deal with shit like that very well. but at
least they're happy. lynsey met a boy too which is so cool
cuz she has taken fucking forever to get over the last
asshole. he seems to be a really great guy. i hope this
works out for them. . . too bad they're really far apart.
so yeah, i'm feeling like i might drown in all this
stress. having no money blows. buying cigarettes is
seriously breaking the bank for me right now and that's
depressing as hell. oh well when i'm a famous jeweller
i'll have lots of cash i hope. we got into this really
great discussion today in my critique about manifest
destiny and how the us government does such a great job of
brainwashing kids into not realizing what really went on in
our history. someone said something about how when you're
a kid you play cowboys and indians (i didn't though i
played with barbies) you always make the indians the bad
guys and how fucking whack that is. to bad in reality our
heros the cowboys were out slaughtering innocent people and
the animals which they needed to survive. it just
reenforces my nature vs. nurture theory about this
country. we all take everything for granted, we just think
that because we're people we have the right to do whatever
we damned well please to the land that we stole from the
native americans. we call it nurture but we're fucking
everything up. oh well.




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