Diary of Stuff (Volume I)
2001-11-23 02:08:01 (UTC)

New day......

Today was a new day.... Just got stuffed from eating way
too much food. From my health problems about 3 years ago,
I ought to watch out for my health. Back then I had high
cholesterol and borderline high blood pressure. After
taking some anti-cholesterol pills for about 6 months, it
went down to normal levels... I was relieved, cuz it
showed that it all depended on my diet, and so I had to cut
down on the chips, and maybe do a little exercise here or
there. The present is a little different now, tho. I
think that it could be my job, and it seems a little
stressful at times. The rest of the work-clan like to
smoke up a storm, but becuz I don't do it, I wait to get
home and snack on a bag of chips...exactly what I got
myself out of doing those years ago.

A Huge problem of mine is learning to separate myself from
what I do, to who I am. If I got a job at BK serving
burgers, I'll think of myself as a highschool drop-'d think that someone with a BS degree could do
better, don't you? I'm going to try to send out resumes to
some high tech companies that I found in our local area,
and see what comes of it. Hopefully I'll get some good
bites, and start feeling better about myself. I just don't
know what to do about it, my occupation defines me more
than being married or having kids. My spirits are more
uplifted and healthy when I'm swimming among the currents
of high technology. you figure why..........

I don't really want to go there, but sometimes I fear that
I put all my eggs into one basket, and that now I am paying
for that deluded foresight.

I hope not.