driftwood

not like a cat

WELL I REALLY NEED SOME SLEEP. I AM GLAD THAT I STAYED UP
WORKING ON MY PROJECT TILL THE EARLY HOURS --I FEEL GOOD.
WELL NOT GOOD BUT AND LITTLE RELIEF ON THE AMOUNT OF WORK I
HAVE LEFT TO DO. TOMMORROW IS ANOTHER FUCKED UP DAY, FULL
OF STRESS AND WORK. I AM NERVOUS ABOUT TWO SITUATIONS THAT
WILL HAPPEN TOMORROW BUT I GUESS I SHOULD GET OVER THEM AT
MY AGE. ANYHOW TODAY SCHOOL WAS OKAY I WAS RUNNING ON PURE
ANDRELINE SO I WAS HIGH AS A KITE. BUT ONCE I CAME HOME I
FELT THE NEED TO PUT MY HEAD DOWN. BUT I KNOW THAT WOULD OF
BEEN A MISTAKE.
HOWEVER I WAS DISTRACTED FROM THIS THOUGHT AS I GOT IN A
FIGHT WITH J. HE AGREED ON HAVING PEOPLE(HIS PARENTS) COME
OVER TO FIX SOMETHING THAT WAS NOT URGENT TO BE FIXED.
SOMETHING THAT HE ACTUALLY COULD OF DONE ON HIS OWN, BUT HE
IS WIMPY THAT WAY. ITS LIKE 'FIGURE IT OUT', DON'T CRY FOR
DADDY. WELL HE KNOWS I HAVE TONS OF WORK AND STUDYING TO DO
AND WORK TO DO FOR TOMMORROW AND THAT I WAS UP TILL 5AM THE
NIGHT BEFORE AND THAT THESE PEOPLE CAN NOT COME OVER
WITHOUT DISTRUBING ME SINCE WE LIVE IN A BACHOLAR. HOW CAN
I IGNORE THEM. THEY ARE HIS PARENTS. SO THEN JUST BEFORE
THEY ARRIVED HE INSULTS ME. I GUESS TO SHOW A SENSE OF
POWER OVER ME. WITH LACK OF SLEEP THAT JUST KILLED ME. I
WAS STRESSED ENOUGH WITHOUT BEING PERSONALLY PUT DOWN. WELL
I REALLY NEEDED TO GET THAT OFF MY CHEST. HE WENT OUT TO
DINNER WITH THEM AND I STAYED HOME TO STUDY. I AM NOT THE
KIND TO BARE A HAPPY FACE ALL THE TIME. I WEAR MY EMOTIONS
ON MY SHELVE. WHEN HE CAME HOME I COULD NOT SPEAK TO HIM,
AND STILL CAN'T. HE DID IT FOR HIMSELF AND COULD OF THOUGHT
OF ME AND MY SITUATRION TODAY AND GOT THEM TO COME THE NEXT
DAY. BUT SOMETIMES LIFE IS ALL ABOUT HIM. I FEEL AWFUL IN A
WAY THAT I AM BEING SO NEGATIVE ABOUT THE ONE I CALL MY
LOVER AND BEST FRIEND, YET I TRUELY FEEL ALL THIS!