the one who got away

lost somewhere inside of me
2001-11-20 02:54:57 (UTC)

one fish ..two fish..red fish...blue fish

i dont want to lose him ...i dont want to lose him ...i
dont want to lose him ...i dont want to lose him... i dont
want to lose him ...i dont want to lose him... i dont want
to lose him... i dont want to lose him ...i dont want to
lose him ...
i think you get the picture....i have been told "I Love
You" so many times that this time its even harder to believe
and i think im pushing him away....
i really dont want to lose him and right now as you read
this josh i know what you are thinking....im not going to
lose you ......i can hear you saying it...i have nothing to
worry about right....well then why am i so scared

just like i wasscared the other night b/c the last time i
let anyone get that close was in the parlor room of the TKE
house on u of l's campus with some guy i didnt even know...

im so afraid i wont meet the expectations of any guy more
experienced then me

i get guys all the time that crack on me and harp on me b/c
the 3 times that i have had someone give me face i havent
returned the favor...and i havent ever given ANYONE head
for that matter or a hand job...

personally id rather not but i keep getting told that
eventually im gonna have to...
im so scared that in every sexual adventure that i have
even up to the day i marry and then have sex that im going
to be compared to the others that they have had

sigh----well lets see how many times i can say this

IM SCARED!!!!!!!!