ShameusLawson

thouhgts of Sam
2001-11-20 01:09:13 (UTC)

what the hell?

sometimes I feel I need to just let things go and continue
on with my life, but then are the times that I just seemed
to get annoyed at the "usual" things. I dont know what is
going on right now. Let's start with the continuing
nightmare. I dont really want to discuss what it's about
but I KNOW I AM REALLY GETTTING TIRED OF THE FUCKING
THING. I cant sleep anymore and I feel like l am getting
stressed out more than usual. I dont know anything
anymore. I was thinking today, about enlisting in the
marines or the army, maybe it will give my life purpose for
4 years. AHHHHHHH! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON???? Now on
to the next thing, Candice Geiger......ok the whole thing
started when I accidently hit on her, I mean I dont realize
what I am doing sometimes until they happen, but the weird
thing is danny told me she was hitting right back on me. I
didnt even realize it, but he said it was there. And today
it was taken to another level. I mean I know there is no
way I could go for her, and not only that I have really
really fallen for joselin. But it just annoys me, you know
I am a skater, and she is a prep. if you want to use those
stupid little title thingys.....fuck I'm sick of thinking
about this right now so I'll finish later
-Sam