Dick Doomsday

Pathetic Punk
2001-11-18 20:42:21 (UTC)

Sunday Morning

This morning has been such a crappy morning. I've only been
awake for about 3 hours...Grrrrrrrr....if this is any
indication of how the rest of my day will go then i want to
go back to sleep.

Mark came over. It seems as if the only time he really
wants to spend with me is when we are in his car. He only
asks me to go here, go there with him. We haven't really
been "out" anywhere. I guess he just wants to go "out" with
his "friends". I guess i'm not one of his "friends"
anymore. That hurts.

He went out with them on friday and i guess on saturday
too. The last time i really spent time with him was when we
went to go get his hair cut. And that was only cuz
he "needed" someone to go with him.

I feel like this "convinient friend" that he only hangs out
with cuz i live so close to him. I know that if Karrie or
Ashleigh lived closer to him that i would never even see
him. You may think me to be jealous and of course i am
jealous. I thought he was my friend too. Don't i get to
spend "real" time with him? I guess not.

What is happening to all my friends. Why do i seem to lose
them all the time? I am not a bad person. In fact i think i
am a good friend. Why doesn't anyone want to give me the
time of day. And you wonder why i am so depressed all the
time.

Well that is my tiff for the day. Well at least my first
tiff for today.




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