LesTaT

To see... as my eyes do..

Life.....
Im still in it..
hell.....
soon to be if im not there yet.
I hurt bad inside.. I do not tell anyone this.. For there
are so many things I could blame this pain on. I have found
what it is..It myself.. I am the pain that I fell walking
down the dark and never ending streets. I am the pain I see
in friends and loved ones eyes. The tears that fall are the
last of me.. Sometimes I wish to just finish it all. Take
everything away.. Yea.. People might miss the dumb ass
white guy. For all the dumb things I do. But that is all...
I tryed working on some new songs...

"the night swept over me,
covered me with-in a blink,
the knife swept over me,
blood and tears around the sink,
falling to the ground,
falling from that wreched sound,
crying,
takeing life down,

shards of metal rip through my veins".. it stops there...

one more not done....

"sacrifice,
The gift of life,
reunite..my crys,

why should it all matter?!
why should i give a fuck?!

I never cared,
no one cared,
just a bloody eyed stare,
god glimpse,
and doubt me,
for i shall see that i die...!
forget me forget everyone,
fuck it enjoy your ride,"

Mother is yelling at me now... she wishes to go
somewhere ...
To everyone .. I am sorry..

There's something about the look in your eyes
Something I noticed when the light was just right
It reminded me twice that I was alive
And it reminded me that you're so worth the fight

There's something about the way you move
I see your mouth in slow motion when you sing
More subtle than something, someone contrives
Your movements echo that I have seen the real thing

Midnight i love you..