MestUp4sumBlink

In Too Deep
2001-11-17 18:47:44 (UTC)

I CANT DO WRONG I CANT DO RIGHT...I FEEL SO ALONE TONIGHT...I WISH SOMEONE COULD FEEL... AND UNDERSTAND THE WAY I THINK...THEY'VE GOT ME ON THE BRINK OF SELF DESTRUCTION

WOW .....LAST NIGHT WAS HORIBLE. AARON GOT ON AFTER I
FINISHED UPDATING THIS THING. WE STARTED ARGUEING, THEN WE
TALKED ABOUT "US". WE WERE SAYING ABOUT HOW WE DONT
UNDERSTAND EACHOTHER, AND WE BOTH WANT TO BE TREATED MORE
LIKE A BOYFRIEND THAN A FRIEND. HE SAID HE JUST REALIZED
THAT HE FEELS LIKE WE ARE JUST VERY CLOSE FRIENDS. AT THAT
POINT I WAS CRYING MY EYES OUT I COULD HARDLY SEE! WHEN HE
SAID THAT I THOT HE WAS BREAKING UP WITH ME. IT WAS THE
WORST FEELING IVE LIKE EVER HAD. THEN HE HAD 2 GO & SO I
ASKED HIM IF HE WAS TRYING TO HINT TO BREAK UP WITH ME. HE
SAID HE WASNT EVEN THINKING THAT AT ALL(THANK GOD). I AM
REALLY HAPPY WE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING THO...BUT IM STILL
SAD CUZ I KNOW HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND ME AND I DONT KNOW HOW
2 MAKE HIM UNDERSTAND. I FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING BAD IN OUR
RELATIONSHIP IS ALL MY FAULT! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!
OK WELL I JUST HAD 2 GET THAT OUT...IM GOING NOW