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My Life on the Line.. 11.16.01...

Well things were going swell today...school went fine and
i stayed an hour talkin with anita... which was great..
well after leaving anita- i followed grace n met up with
the rest of them... we were on our way 2 seaport and i
thought it would be like any other day... senyu had to go
get sum 'pictures' so we went to wait 4 her @
abercrombie... so then this dude comes from nowhere w/
elaine n we follow him bak to his place... then i get
confronted w/ hugo up in my face about all this shit with
esther... so heres the picture.. in an abandoned apartment
staircase... bright n clean... yea so i thought we would
talk and get this shit over with (meanwhile i was gettin
all nervous) cuz frankly, i have NEVER talked 2
Hugo...wtf... i dont kno him that well... all i kno is
that his eyebrows r fucked up... yea anyway so i ask
wheres ray and ray comes down from the stairs raging
pissed like he was panting with rage.. i could tell... and
then he starts questioning me... wtf... thunder n crap...
esther had a right 2 kno y she wasnt invited... n so did
i... wtf... so like danny duck n the dude comes n theyre
all like " hit him " or "at least slap ureself" i didnt
kno who the fuk he was.. n iwas tryin 2 get my way out of
this shit... so angel coems n tells them about how esther
is.. cuz we all kno how she is...so they're pissed about
all this shit.. i mean wtf does this have 2 do w/
anything? i thought ray n i were gonna settle thigns..
like alone.. not with his fukin azn clique of niggas... so
ray finally realizes that all this talking was
pointless... well DUH... I COULDVE TOLD HIM THAT... WHAT
AN IDIOT... BI HEAD-- HE LETS EVERYTHING GO 2 HIS FUKIN
HEAD... but all this time i was scared that they might do
sum shit 2 me but it's like.. what good would it do if
they did anything? huh? wtf... THEYRE THE ONES THAT DIDNT
INVITE ME AND NOW THEYRE YELLING @ ME CUZ I TOLD ESTHER
SHE WASNT INVITED--WELL SORRY MUTHAFUCKERS! GOD--FUKIN
WHO THE HELL CARES NOW- EVERYTHING IS OVER AND ITS NOT ANY
OF URE BUSINESS ANYMORE
n wtf esther told them it was me... she was all pissed n
crayin 2 them and now she's all happy...wtf... so i had 2
get fukin yelled @ 4 wut i did when it didnt hurt
anyone!?!?! jesus ... sum1 save me b4 i kill myself...
thanks 2 angel 4 getting me out of it... and one more
thing... there was a security camera facign me when they
were talking--wtf-- idiots... go fukin smoke ureselves 2
death b/c i'm not gonna take it anymore... I'M OUT OF THE
GROUP--I HOPE U ALL FUKIN DIE--ESPECIALLY RAY... DIE
MUTHAFUKER...it was nice knowing them i guess.. 4 the time
being... maybe ill hang out with them but 4 now.. i need
time 4 myself and every1 needs 2 stop pointing fingers n
get on with life... now that theyve caused this pain in
me.. i think i'll lie down and sleep cuz frankly all this
fukin stress is makin me pissed.........