silverfairywings

Birdy: Where am I now?
2001-03-26 03:14:03 (UTC)

Tonight, I also have a lot on..

Tonight, I also have a lot on my mind, but the way Steve is
acting is bothering me. Jenn called me earlier and she was
upset because Steve acted like he didn't want to talk to
her and like he didn't like her as much. I called Steve and
he acted very depressed. HE WON'T TALK TO ME AND IT'S
BOTHERING ME VERY MUCH! I think his fear of not making the
baseball team, the fact that he's failing 2 classes, and
the fact that he doesn't really have much of a
realationship with his father is catching up on him. He
sounds tired.
Usually he tells me everything, but he's being very
secretive and I don't like it. I can sense when things are
wrong and somthing is definately wrong. It bothers me that
I don't know what it is.
Anyway, tommorow I got to the gynocologist. Fun, fun,
fun. I've never been there before. I have to go because I
never ever get my period...ever. So, I get to miss a little
school. I hope that I'm back before Earth Science though.
No one can afford to miss that class, especially someone as
slow as I am. Plus, I'm spoda see Jeremy's ring 10th. God I
miss him! He was my first real love and I still love him,
even if I try not to...or maybe I don't love him as much as
I'm telling myself I do. I think it would be better if I
just forgot what we had because it hurts so much to think
of what I've lost when it comes to him. (sigh), what can I
do though? My head doesn't control my heart unfortunately.

~*~Birdy~*~




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