sweetaddiction

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2001-11-16 03:26:09 (UTC)

i dont have time to sleep..

i dont have time to sleep tonight.
and i dont have time to think.
maybe thats a good thing.
or maybe just the opposite.
coughing.
im tired of coughing.
being sick is dumb.
i got a new tattoo.
its hurting.
i need to clean it.
time.
none of that for me.
coffee.
keeps me going.
awake.
alert?
maybe.
no..
no actually.
coughing keeps me awake.
at night.
at sleepy time.
but tonight is not a night for sleeping.
nope nope nope
awake all night.
papers.
for stupid professors
papers that ill put so much effort into.
and no matter the grade that i recieve.
they will eventually turn into
just a clutter of shit on my floor.
along with the rest of my life.
my life is my floor.
dirty and unsanitary as it may be.
yup.
and i
am a very
sleepy
girl.
who is being very
very
unproductive.
moving.
too much movement in the world.
yes.
from people to phone calls.
to jobs and school.
to chain smoking and fucking.
we all are in desperate need of a time out.
a time out where theres quiet.
maybe this is my quiet.
maybe this almost three hundred entries full diary of mine
online
online.
what a funny place to have a diary.
online is so unpersonal.
and diarys are so the opposite.
but i guess a happy medium is what we all need huh.
happy.
heh.
a happy something.
a happy someone.
negativity...
anger.
self control is a good thing sometimes.
and others,bad.
sometimes i think i have too much.
hm.
yeah.
coffee time for me.
cups and cups to keep me away from drooling all over these
stupid essays that need to be written
to apease some stupid guy with a fucking degree in bullshit.
which is what all degrees are really.
bullshit to make you money.
and yeah.
i need that.
so yeah off i go.
off i go to be apart of everything i hate about the world.




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