MelissaBabyForU

~A State of Perpetual Narcolepsy~
2001-11-14 17:01:21 (UTC)

-All Better Now-

Well, it turns out I was a total bitch in breaking up with
Jonny. I'm just glad he still wants to be with me. I love
him so much, I will never let him go again! =)

MelissaBabyForU: Hi Jonny
Cute301Guy: hello
MelissaBabyForU: How are you?
Cute301Guy: tired
Cute301Guy: how was school hun'?
MelissaBabyForU: It was okay.
MelissaBabyForU: I wasn't feeling that well, so it was
only one hour.
MelissaBabyForU: We talked about trees blowing up.
Cute301Guy: aw, i'm sorry
Cute301Guy: feeeling better now?
MelissaBabyForU: I suppose.
MelissaBabyForU: I still think we should break up, but I
don't want to talk about it right now.
Cute301Guy: maybe we can talk about it later tonight
MelissaBabyForU: Tonight?
Cute301Guy: when I come over, or if you want to come over
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MelissaBabyForU: My mother won't let you come over.
Cute301Guy: that's ok
Cute301Guy: 'we can go out or somehting
MelissaBabyForU: Do you really want to?
MelissaBabyForU: Can we go as friends?
MelissaBabyForU: It's not you, or anything, I just think
I need to be alone right now.
Cute301Guy: i do'nt think its a good idea for you to be
alone
MelissaBabyForU: I do miss you a lot. It's eating me
away inside, and I keep thinking about how miserable and
sad you sounded on the phone.
Cute301Guy: plus we haven't broken up
MelissaBabyForU: I do. I don't think that I make you
happy.
MelissaBabyForU: And I want you to be happy.
Cute301Guy: I still love you, even if you do'nt love me
anymore
MelissaBabyForU: You know that I still love you, right?
MelissaBabyForU: I just wish I could be enough for you.
Cute301Guy: i do now
MelissaBabyForU: *hug*
Cute301Guy: you are more then enough babe
Cute301Guy: I'm sorry I made you really upset
MelissaBabyForU: I wish that you could trust me enough to
let me talk to your friends.
MelissaBabyForU: Or be able to tell me anything.
Cute301Guy: i do
MelissaBabyForU: You didn't make me upset, I did that to
myself.
Cute301Guy: i'm sorry
MelissaBabyForU: I still love you, and I want you to be
happy.
MelissaBabyForU: I just don't think I can make you happy.
Cute301Guy: i just didn't wwant my work life to cross
over to my personnal life
Cute301Guy: it wasn't that I didn't trust you
MelissaBabyForU: I'm sorry.
Cute301Guy: don't be
Cute301Guy: its my fault
Cute301Guy: I made you this upset. and it blew up
MelissaBabyForU: I just felt kind of weird because you
let Luba talk to Dustin and it was like you valued her more
so you let her and I just didn't feel special or anything.
Cute301Guy: I never want to loose you Melissa
MelissaBabyForU: Really?
MelissaBabyForU: Why do I mean so much to you?
Cute301Guy: when luba talked to dustin, things got shaky
between me and dustin, hon'
Cute301Guy: because I've never loved any one as much as I
love you
MelissaBabyForU: Even Beth?
Cute301Guy: even beth
MelissaBabyForU: I always felt like no matter what I do,
that you'll still love Beth more.
Cute301Guy: you treat me better than anyone in the world
MelissaBabyForU: No, I don't
MelissaBabyForU: I treat you bad.
Cute301Guy: i do'nt love beth anymore, sweet heart
MelissaBabyForU: []
Cute301Guy: you treat me very well
MelissaBabyForU: But when you did love her, you loved her
more than you love me.
Cute301Guy: didn't we have such a great time last week
Cute301Guy: no, I love you way more, than I ever loved
her
MelissaBabyForU: Yes, we did.
MelissaBabyForU: Really?
Cute301Guy: we are equal in our realtionshop now
MelissaBabyForU: I'm sorry that I was mean this morning.
I think I just need some time to think things over.
Cute301Guy: it didn't used to be that way.. and
Cute301Guy: you fixed it, you changed our realtionship,
and made me feel just as special as you
MelissaBabyForU: You think we're equal? []
Cute301Guy: that's why I love you sooooo much
MelissaBabyForU: I remember discussing that with you when
you were drunk
MelissaBabyForU: You're such a sweet guy, Jonny.
MelissaBabyForU: I want you to have the best.
MelissaBabyForU: Whatever or whoever that may be.
MelissaBabyForU: Even when I was mean this morning, you
are still nice to me.
Cute301Guy: well, I can try to be the best[]
Cute301Guy: aw,
MelissaBabyForU: We're not breaking up.
Cute301Guy: i'm so sorry that you were feeling all those
things these past days
MelissaBabyForU: I made that decision right now.
Cute301Guy: *yay*
Cute301Guy: I love you Melissa!
MelissaBabyForU: Thank you for not leaving me.
MelissaBabyForU: I love you more, Jonny.
Cute301Guy: thank you for listening to me
MelissaBabyForU: *hug*
Cute301Guy: NO, I love you morE!
MelissaBabyForU: []
Cute301Guy: I want to give you a big hug, and you can
wipe my tears away if you want'
MelissaBabyForU: Did you cry?
Cute301Guy: yeah
Cute301Guy: my eyes are tearing now
MelissaBabyForU: I think when I heard your voice on the
phone, it really showed me how much you are being honest
and how much you do love me
MelissaBabyForU: and I think that's why I didn't want to
talk to you on the phone
MelissaBabyForU: because I didn't want to know that
MelissaBabyForU: I never meant to hurt you, I'm sorry
Cute301Guy: aww[]
MelissaBabyForU: I am a bitch.
Cute301Guy: its okaym baby
MelissaBabyForU: Are you sure?
MelissaBabyForU: I'm so sorry for being bipolar.
Cute301Guy: don't ever appolgise for that
MelissaBabyForU: Do you think that I could make you smile
again?
MelissaBabyForU: And make you feel really happy?
Cute301Guy: you should never be punished for being born
that way ok
Cute301Guy: yeah, you arelady am
MelissaBabyForU: I want to be everything for you. []
Cute301Guy: its ok
Cute301Guy: did you see my rankme.com link?
Cute301Guy: http://www.rankme.com/profile.asp?
n=cute301guy
MelissaBabyForU: Yah []
MelissaBabyForU: did you see mine?
Cute301Guy: hold on
MelissaBabyForU: here
Cute301Guy: it says photo not aviable
MelissaBabyForU: Now that we've been through this, I'm so
much more appreciative of you.
MelissaBabyForU: *look at the profile*
Cute301Guy: you are not a 1!!!!
Cute301Guy: yo'ure a 10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
MelissaBabyForU: It makes me feel so nice, how you didn't
leave me, even though I let you go.
Cute301Guy: aw thanks sweetie pie
MelissaBabyForU: No, I'm a -385 but they don't have
negative numbers.
MelissaBabyForU: They need a 0
MelissaBabyForU: I'm going to hold on to you forever.

I love him so damn much.




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