bloodkissed

watch your back

I decided I should be "cool" like everyone else and
get an online journal. I have one on my website but it
takes forever to log in. What ever happened to paper?
Technology is taking over our lives.
I am so mad at myself right now. I've eaten so much.
Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I was so proud of myself
because I ate around 400 calories a day and ended up losing
5lbs. I'm positive I've gained it back today. I'm so mad at
my mom for going shopping and buying yummy food that I want
to eat! I'll start my diet (if you want to call it that)
again tomorrow.
Everyday I hate the world more and more. I don't know
if my hatred could possibly grow any stronger. Everyone is
so caught up in their lives and pleasures that they don't
give a fuck about other people or God. Yesterday Josh and I
decided that school is the governments way of pulling God
out of our lives. We never have time for anything because
of school 7 hours a day(for me anyway) and homework. Oh
just listen to me...I'm the one that sits on this computer
all night, everynight. I guess I deserve a social life
though since I can't even hold a conversation with anyone
at school.
I have so much going through my mind right now. I
can't even think. I can trust no one, and if they say to
me "You can trust me!", I won't believe them because I've
been let down so many times. If I tell anyone something I
expect them to keep their mouths shut.