anomaly

epiphany
2001-03-24 00:04:35 (UTC)

I have worked all week and can..

I have worked all week and can not wait to relax
tomorrow. I do not want to do anything really but I keep
getting pressure to come to Chicago or go to Detroit. I
know I am not going to Chicago but I am also too tired to
go to Detroit(though I do want to go to the casino).
My friend or what ever she is really wants me to go to
Chicago but I do not want to go. I tell her no but she
complains about things always have to be my way or no way.
I use to think that we could have had a meaningful
relationship but now I know that that is just not
possible. She is very jealous and she is also poly. She
can not be with one woman and I want a one on one
relationship. We do have a lot in common but we differ in
what love and relationship is supposed to be. She meet
someone, sleep with them, and love them in less than a
week. She loves three or more women as I am writing. WHO
IN THEIR WRITE MIND WOULD WANT TO SPARK A LONG-TERM
RELATIONSHIP WITH AN INDIVIDUAL WITH CHARACTER SUCH AS
THIS? It is alright if you guys agree that it is for fun
but it is not alright if it is more.
She wanted to make it more and I did too for a while
but recently reality kicked me in the ass and said,"Don't
settle for less". So, I am not. She is a very sweet, nice,
and intelligent person but when it comes to love(real
love), she hasn't got a clue. I am closing this chapter of
my life.




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