JeffStark

In The Name Of
2001-11-11 23:18:59 (UTC)

Today, and 4 The REST of my LIFE

I think it's obvious to me that I'm making the right
decision about going to SIUE. I'm blindly going into a
whole new world, where I'll be completely alone. I've
always been jealous of the life ernest himingway had when
he was in that cabin. I don't know that I'm looking for
that serious of isolation, but I am definitely looking
forward to starting over.

Things between Roni and I are just about gone. I'm getting
to the point where I know not to expect anything from her.
I'm back to feeling like if I try to spend time with her,
I'll be intuding on her life, and I don't want that at
all. I want my on life. I want to go into this new
environment and make my own friends, and have my own life,
not be some tag a long that's better known by whose friends
I am.

Oh well, this is just a part of life I have to go through,
and I'm ready to do it, and give it all I have.




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