Sunday, November 11, 2001
Today realized soemthing...I do not adapt well to hanges
at all. I miss everything in the past and rules are changin
and it just feels so wrong. I don'tknwo what to do, if I
should stop fuckign and drinking, cuz really i am getting
sick of liing a life that way. But on the other hand it
feels really good. I think my depression is comign back
pretty strong and other days its not too bad. That might
make me Bipolar..I reall don't know and I pray day to day.
I ju hope everythign hshapes up a lil Bit. Well Ill prolly
write a lil later before i go to bed.