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2001-11-11 05:48:33 (UTC)

I caught a glimpse of your..

I caught a glimpse of your splendor
In the corner of my eye
The most beautiul
Site I've ever seen
And then I knew that
I'd never be the same
Show me your glory
Send down your presence
I want to see you face
Majesty shines within you
I can't go on without your love

How do you not know how much you mean to me. I care about
you so damn much, you cant even begin to imagine. I can't
even explain it in words. I have try so hard to make you
happy, but I always feel like I've failed. And anytime
anything makes you sad, or mad, i feel it tearing at my
heart so hard. It is the worst feeling I have ever felt in
my life. Knowing that you are unhappy. It makes me hate
myself, because I feel like I should be doing something. Is
there anything I can say to make everything right again...
or to make you even smile? But even if there was, you
wouldn't tell me. Are you afraid to tell me things? Afraid
to let me too close to you? Because I sometimes feel pushed
away, even when we are cuddled around eachother. I want to
know about you. I want to know how you feel, and who you
are. I want to be able to... to love you. Because I feel
it, and I could show you, if you would only let me in. I
gave my heart to you so long ago, and you never even knew
it and I trust you with everything I am. But I dont feel
like I have your trust in return. Or your heart. And I am
ready for them, and I would never, ever hurt you. I just
need you to believe in me, trust me, and share with me,
tell me, everything YOU are. Let me love you back Kevin.