chaositself

journal
2001-11-10 13:31:07 (UTC)

life, when it really gets to you

have you ever had that feeling that you want to sleep and
never wake up? like the whole world hates you, but doesn't
even know you. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep
because it was the only way to cover up what you were
really feeling...hatred. Why is life so hard, free choice
is a curse seemingly. all judgement and ridicule. You
almost wish you weren't the hypocrit you damn everyday. I
hate you. I hate you all. You hate everyone so much that
you have to get away but you are to much of a god damn
chicken to ever try to get away. run away. But it hurts
most of all when you hate yourself then for hating yourself
until stand in your room spinning in circles because you
can't escape it. God damn all those people agaistn you. How
dare they. And your brain is whirling. oh likes its never
before and you could just curl up and dsie because its
easier than living...but no, your not a quitter. But
whoever said life was a game that you could quit.




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