abby c

i think i finally said this right

i know its over now
i just dont want it to be forever.

i dont like missing you... i want you next to me in the
car, holding my hand... to be able to wake up and see you
sleeping peacefully next to me, to walk down the hallways
togetehr between every period, talkign on the phone...
hugs, kisses

i want it all, and i want you to want it all too

.......i just saw katie- i am soo sick of everyoen making
such a big deal abotu every guy i talk to now... "oh well,
she doesn't like ed anymore so i think she lieks him, or
him, or him, or him"

they dont knwo anything. and i've never stopped liking
you, i'm just puttign thigns on pause, becasue thats what
you want

and i dont knwo what to do abotu these guys that liek me...
i mena, i guess i can liek them but nothing with them can
compare to anythign with you.... i wont let myself go out with anyone
unless i cna give them my full attention anyways... so right now i'm
pretty confused abotu what to
do....................................................................
......................................................................
..................................

i never wanted to be far from you, it was all a big
misunderstanding, too many mistakes on my part, and yes
some of yours too

and i knwo now i'm supposed to go off and pretend like i'm
okay without knowing if you love me anymore or not

becasue i love you, more than anything... you knwo how i
feel.................. and i'm sure you know how much i
hate it when i see you in the hall and hold all my feelings
in

and even if i let them out, told you all over again how
much i cared and needed you- wanted you, i cant tell it all
in that little amount of time

i cnat stand us acting like we dont have anything

go, go and be with whoever makes you happy
i'm just saying..... i'm just sayign that i dont like the
way things are working out, but i ddin't liek how they were
before this either

next time, if there is- and i hope there is a next time i'm
not goign to be afraid of what will happen if i let it all
out, and i wont rush anything...... i'll do everythign to
make you happy......... i'll try to make everythign right

but however it is now, how ever its gonan be... they'll
never love you like i do

and ed? enjoy yourself, please
i love seeing your smile :..(