It's Hot in Here...
2001-11-09 16:01:23 (UTC)


So, things are good, but inevitably, they are crazy.

I have an O Chem test in two hours, and I'm trying not to
stress out about it...I'm ready and I studied, I just need
to get it over with.

I have not been able to get the name Travis out of my head
for the past week...The thing is with other stuff that I
know shouldn't be in my head, I just get them out, but the
problem is, I can't tell if God is placing this name in my
head, or if it's Satan messing with me. I'm not anxious
about it, except for what it could do to my current
relationship, which obviously wouldn't be good.

I really don't know though, things are really getting wierd,
I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing right now, I'm
beginning to feel the tugs of travel...I really could use
some kind of "epic journey" right now...I'm not sure why
that idea attracts me so much, but it would be the greatest
thing to travel around the world and do some awesome stuff
from Jesus...I'm learning so much just reading about four
guys and their journey, I can't even fathom what I would
learn first hand...But where I once thought that I would
like to do that alone, I know it would be so much better for
me to go with people...Who knows, God's plan for me will be
revealed in due time...I just need to kick back relax, and
love on people, which may or may not include Travis...

The thing is, Jesus may just be putting his name in my head
as someone to be friends with, like the really close
Christian friends I've been praying for. I don't know about
that either, so I think the best thing is to just be patient
and wait for some sure direction...