Puteri_Rina

Bangkok here I come…!!!

Sunday, 28th October 2001

Finally…
After a long wait…
After all those hassle of plannings…
The day had come…!!!
I’m off to Bangkok…
I took the Garuda flight at 1000 hours and arrived in
Bangkok International Airport at 1200 hours…

Before I left….
I got a hug from Daddy…
And before I left for the airport…
These words were whispered to my ears…
“You take a very good care of yourself… enjoy your trip and
forget all those heartaches and miseries for once… come
back and help me for my big day, OK… have a good time… I
love you, my Princess…”
awww...
That hurts…

I did said that this trip was to wrap up the year…
I did said that I’ll be a fresh new someone when I come
back…
And I did said that I’ll put aside all agonies, miseries
and heartaches after the trip…
But I guess…
It’s not as easy as it seems…

I’m looking forward for the next three days in Bangkok…
And I’ll be spending the whole day in DreamWorld tomorrow…
In the mean time…
It’s shop, shop, and more shopping…!!!

My thoughts…

Daddy and I grew up together…
With only 9 years in age differences…
He’s my uncle…
He’s my childhood friend…
And he’s my bestfriend…
I keep no secrets from Daddy…
And he…
Had always been with me through all thick and thin…
Daddy understands me well…
And he knows me like the back of his hand…
Like what he had always said…
I’m his Princess…

It was a real surprise for me…
When Daddy announced his marriage…
Marriage…
That’s the word I had been dreading to hear all these years…
I’ve known Auntie Shafiqah for years now… (8 years to be
exact…)
And I know how much they are in love with each other…
It started off way back to their junior colleges days…
And it has been a long, long wait for Auntie Sha…

I am happy for them…
I had always wanted them to be together…
But…
The fear of losing Daddy…
Is getting stronger and stronger…
I know I have to let him go…
I know he’s got a life to lead too…
But…
I just can’t afford to lose another love one…

Will I really lose my Daddy…?
Will he ever be the same Daddy like I’ve known all my life…?
*sigh*

Daddy…
If you’re reading this…
You know how much I love you…
And you know how much you meant to me…
I wouldn’t want to go through all that pain again…
I love you, Daddy…
I LOVE YOU…!!!