vampire in shadows

and it comes back to me

Once again the pain has found me. It's icy misorey grips my
heart, but with it all, the pain, the hatred, the coldness
comes a sort of understanding. Almost a form of love. It's
like I can see the world for what it really is. I feel a
sick like pain for everything and everyone but at the same
time it dosent seem like pain at all.