Monties life
2001-11-04 07:23:57 (UTC)

Why I haven't commited suicide... yet... :)

Dear Diary~
Often as I write, stupid people are usually my topic.
As they consume the world they often consume my thoughts.
Well, not today. No, today, I do believe that I am going
to talk about babies having babies...
On one of the sites that I visit, often there are
young girls and boys asking to have cyber sex. The world
we live in today had gone totally to shit. When I was 12,
that wasn't on my mind at all. All I could think about was
jumping on my trampoline and playing basketball. These
kids are talking about how they have had sex and are
pregnant. It makes you wonder about their parents. Do
they check out the friends that they have? Do they know
where their kids are? How can the parents trust their kids
to do the right thing when the parents don't even know
where their kids are? My dad always made sure he knew who
my friends were. If there was one he didn't like, I wasn't
allowed to see them at all. Then it seemed like he did
trust me. But now, I realise that he made the right
desision. I wasn't looking for the right friends. I was
just looking for some, it didn't matter who. In 8th grade,
there was this girl who I thought was a good person. She
wasn't. Two years later, she ended up pregnant and kicked
out of school. All of her friends were trash and my daddy
didn't want that for me. I can understand and thank him
for doing what he did. If only there were more daddy's
like mine out there. I was fortunate to have 3 wonderful
parents at home. My mom, my dad, and my stepmother Carla.
I do believe that I am the luckiest daughter in the world.
My moms are two of the most wonderful people in the world.
If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be the kind and
beautiful person who is typing before you... Children
shouldn't be having sex. I do believe that your spouse
should be your first, but at least wait until you are an
adult... I wish someone would tell me why kids want to
grow up so fast. I would give anything to be a kid again,
even if only for a day. To be able to run and play without
a care in the world. If only... I have commited myself to
being the best mother that I can be. I want those kids to
be kids while they can. Don't try to grow up too fast.
Childhood is the best time of your life... Enjoy it while
you can.