Aware now of the irrelevancy
Of these vacant feelings within my heart,
I beg for just mere obediency
Before the suicidal thoughts again start.
I cannot silence these wallowing gaffs,
Nor obtain any true sense of sanity.
My eyes show emptiness and everybody laughs;
It is true, I harbor no vanity.
I separate myself from who I am.
I separate myself from who I was.
And I am aware that He will soon damn
Me to erase this unrequited love.
The fall will be pleasant--sweet damnation--
To remove me from this generation.