Kathy

DiArY
2001-11-02 02:32:55 (UTC)

Feelings

OK...I always wonder sometimes if the guys I talk to
everyday are more than just friends to me. I've come to the
conclusion that most of them are...but there's this one guy
I keep wondering about. At least I keep wondering about
lately. And usually when a guy is on my mind that
often...it means something more. Usually...cuz last month
one guy was thought about quite often...turns out that I
look to him as if he's my really cool older brother. A
really hot one...but hey...we are not related. I'm allowed
to say that. But the one that has been on my mind
lately...he's my ex-crush's best friend. And we all kno the
rule is u dont ever like best friends...especially rite
after u got over one of them. It's not rite. And then it's
like yeah I had some drama with your best friend. And I
used to like your best friend. It's too weird. Besides he
just found out today that I don't like C anymore. He was
all 'how come?' How am I supposed to tell him that C
doesn't like me. And that I've been demoted to friend
status. Which is better than nothing but I liked it when I
was the one he wanted. But whatever. Still...B has always
been a really nice guy. But I never thought of him as my
type. I mean, I have, but I never really thought about him
too much. Probably becuz I liked C. And here I am over C,
but I think I've moved on to his best friend. That's how i
get over a guy. I find a new one. Or they break my heart
badly and I hate them for life. Luckily it did not reach
that point. And I got over him before it did. But his best
friend!?!? So wrong. This can't be rite. Maybe it's the
whole "he's like a bro to me' thing. You know, maybe I see
him as a good friend. Then again that is what I said about
Logan and ended up falling in love with him. Heh. Funny
story. But today B asked me in 4th what my favorite book
was. No guy has ever asked that. My favorite book. He
caught me pretty off guard. What is going on?? =P

Kathy




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