Blue Castle reverie

My Saga
2001-11-01 03:06:43 (UTC)

All Hallows Eve

This was the first year that I didn't go trick-or-treating;
the first year that I didn't have a costume. It kind of
makes me sad. I'm growing up, with great protestation on
my part. I've always loved Halloween; 364 days a year, you
have to struggle to be yourself, and just one day you have
an opportunity to escape and be someone else. It's a
fascinating concept; and this year, I lost my chance. The
older I get, the less special days feel... when I was
little, Halloween, Christmas, birthdays, they all had a
special feeling to them, a feeling that you felt in the
deepest parts of you, and that welled out in bubbles of
happiness, but now, they feel the same as any other day...
you have to reming yourself, with a feeling of almost
surprise that there is anything out of the ordinary. I
don't want to lose that, but I wasn't given a great deal of
choice in the matter... things just keep going by faster,
and the things that used to be special get lossed in the
fray.