jon's babie forever
A Joke and Another Girl
A few days ago I found out that Grayson was just joking.
Jon still has no clue that I like him. I'm sort of
disappointed now. I figured, as Monique said, that if Jon
knew I liked him he would notice me and try to get to know
Of course that didn't work out.
Now, I'm on my own again. I guess that's okay, but I am so
tired of getting discouraged. Should I give up? Should I
keep trying? Should I back off? So many questions and there
isn't anyone that can give me a real answer.
I really got discouraged last Sunday when I saw Jon walking
to church with another girl. I was so positive that it was
another girl, especially when I saw Shanna with another guy.
I wanted to give up, because he WAS supposed to be with another
girl, but that girl was supposed to be me. I didn't get any help
from my parents on this one, they just thought it was funny. I
didn't think they would really understand, anyway. I have been
wondering about this all week.
I don't know if I want Jon to be with Shannon or another girl
besides me. I don't know...