Jessica

Dear Diary: This is the first..

Dear Diary:

This is the first time I have ever wrote to an online
diary. I guess this all started with my friend who told me
about this whole thing.
I have a lot on my mind. Ever since the new year it has
been hell. I saw my cousin dead like 2hrs after she had
died, my mom almost had breast cancer (it was just a syst
or something), my dad totaled his car in a wreck which is a
miracle he survived, and my sister has cervical cancer.
Cervical cancer is "treatable", and is when cells in your
uterus and cervix grow a lot and becomes abnormal. She has
yet to tell me anything about any of this; it has been 2
weeks since my parents knew. Today in class I went up in
class to present this overhead project thing and started to
cry in front of my whole class!
My "friends" are being very snotty. For the last 4 or 5
months they have decided (I guess) to leave me out of stuff
and "forget" me. It doesn't seem to bother them because
they keep doing it; I bring it to their attention (w/o
having a big o'l fight about it). They don't realize that
it hurts to not be asked to do stuff. I am always
energetic and happy. I don't understand. I don't really
have any other friends, and I am a senior. I don't think
that I will really spend all that much time with them after
graduation. What should I do about all this?

Please help
Kobester