OhBaby It Is Me

MY SO-CALLED LIFE
2001-10-28 00:10:03 (UTC)

And Still I Have More To Say

I don't exactly know a lot about very much right now. But I do
know that I have it bad for two people. One that my best friend
knows about and one that she does not. I'm pretty positive that she
approves of the first one, but the second she will not. And then
there are a bunch of just other goof off's that I wouldn't mind
getting with for about an hour. But we can't get in to all that
crap.
THEN, this is the killer, Jeff is sick. And he's not in school
for me to profess my never ending love to him and Shaun thinks it's a
sign that it's not ment to be. But that is just his opinion and I
disagree totally. I wish that it could just be April again. I would
do A LOT of stuff differently. Or even if I could just get another
chance, I would totally treat him differently. I would treat him
like the God my mind portrays him to be. I know that goes against my
whole faith, but it's not ment to be that way. It's just not.
I did a witness today at 5 o'clock mass. I was really nerivious
and it showed. I ALSO recieved the Hands of Christ Award this
morning at St. Margret Mary's in Rochester. That was a pretty cool
honor. There was something that made me a little upset. There was
this kid that I watched walk into the chourch and I immediatly
reconized him to be the Matt kid that I hung out with all during the
retreat my freshmen year. I knew it was him from the second I saw
him, I even remembered his name. Then a girl walked in and someone
siad -Hi Liz- and I knew it was Liz Flynn b/c it just had to be her
and that Matt was here. So after the awards were given, Liz called
my name and ran over to me. We talked for a little bit and then went
to the reception across the road. I went to go get a cookie and
Melissa said that she saw Matt, so we went over there and I went to
go give Matt a hug, and I realized that he had absolutly no clue who
I was. Not one clue. And to think that I spend three stright days
with that kid, getting to know him and bonding with the person I had
uncovered. We even cryed together. That was a big disappointment.
But I'll get over it.
And then we went to Target and I saw Brian there and me and
Brian hung out for a little while. That was fun.
Now I'm here waiting for 10:30 to roll around so that I can go
(in the words of CHRISTINA LAMAN)-steal Gary- from my little sister.
sounds like oodles of fun, huh?
We saw Gary's brother Scotie pimpin' twice today. The first
time we were on Gibson street turning to park out front of St. Marys
and I saw this boy in a SUV so I told my sister to look at Scotie
Pimpin, lying that it was him, and she looked, and it was really
him. And the next time was when we were walking out of church and
there was this boy getting into his car so agian I told my sister to
look at Scotie pimpin' so we watched as Dan Vegard drove his car by
us with that one kid in the front seat AND SCOTIE PIMPIN IN THE BACK
SEAT. It was mad crazy. But I still don't think that the first time
was really him but Mom and Steph swear up and down that it was.
Ok, I'm getting tired of typing, and who really reads this
anyway? Chrissy, Shaun, and Carly. If anyone else does, they should
give me some outside feedback. So do it!
And here is my song;

I know I may be young
but I've got feelings too
And I need to do what I feel like doing
So let me go and just listen

All you people look at me like I'm a little girl
Well did you ever think it be okay for me to step into this world
Always saying little girl don't step into the club
Well I'm just tryin' to find out why cause dancing's what I love

Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it

I know I may come off quiet
I may come off shy
But I feel like talking
feel like dancing when I see this guy
What's practical is logical
What the hell who cares
All I know is I'm so happy
when you're dancing there

I'm a slave for you
I cannot hold it
I cannot control it.
I'm a slave for you
I won't deny it
I'm not trying to hide it
Baby
don't you wanna
dance upon me
To another time and place
Baby
don't you wanna
dance upon me
Leaving behind my name
my age

Like that
You like it
Now watch me

Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it

I really wanna dance
tonight with you
I really wanna do what you
want me to
I really wanna dance
tonight with you
I really wanna do what you
want me to

Baby
don't you wanna
dance upon me
To another time and place
Baby
don't you wanna
dance upon me
Are you ready
Leaving behind my name
my age

I'm a slave for you
I cannot hold it
I cannot control it
I'm a slave for you
I won't deny it
I'm not trying to hide it

Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it
Get it get it
get it get it

I'm a slave for you
Here we go now
I cannot hold it
I cannot control it
I'm a slave for you
Here we go
I won't deny it
Yeah
I'm not trying to hide it
Like that

(Slave for you, Spears)