Joshin Jane

Passionfruit
2001-10-27 01:55:33 (UTC)

but i have no crackers....

I wrote something earlier today, at around 4 a.m., and i
may decide to enter it later, but things have happened
since then and i don't want to leave today on a bitter note.
i think for the most part, i've resolved issues between
myself and my parents.
lots of crying and protesting was involved until they
finally realized they were wrong and had to explain to me
why they were acting the way they were.
it's nothing that needs getting into; it happened and it's
over.

running on half an hour of sleep sometimes leaves one
barely coherent.
my thoughts at presently are all over the place.
there are no valid connections between any of them.
most of them do pertain to the lawrence....i think...

shaw had a truly reiman moment.
although his use of the "smack of" statement wasn't
followed up with an "injustice," it still had me giggling
for 20 minutes while doing the voltron.
yeah, lawrence jokes really can't be taken outside the
context of the lawrence.

i was at the lawrence starting at 2:30 pm yesterday
afternoon.
holly had promised to come down to the office before the
hayride to help out a little bit, knowing the shitload of
laying out we would have to do that night.
she brought anita when she came and for some unexplicable
reason, having them there was the best feeling ever.
we didn't have time to go out and really do anything - i
had to work and they had to leave for the hayride at 6:15 -
but we went across the street for a quick dinner.
on our way out to the car, we passed by a lonely looking
trampoline resting outside one of the basement doors.
i reasoned that it would be perfect for some freestyle
walking and that we had earned the chance for some entertainment
after our weeks of enduring effort.
i came back from dinner and, as imagined, rohit is having a
blast with the trampoline and an empty mac box.
i tell mike about the trampoline and he refers me to an all-
school e-mail mrs. adams has sent out about THE STOLEN
TRAMPOLINE!
at first i panic, thinking about what a horrible community
service trampoline stealing person i am, until i realize
that the e-mail was written at 4:30 and reported the
trampoline missing from the Bowl during halloween party,
while we had swiped it at 5:30 from the basement comm serv
office.
the trampoline may still be temporarily residing in the
office, but i don't remember having seen it when i went
down this afternoon so i'm assuming it was returned not to
its previous but to its rightful owners.

i guess one might say that cluck is kind of a shady place.
robbins really eased up on this week's budget, seeing as
the paper was THREE TIMES its usual length and we had
missed two consecutive feeds because we'd been working so
hard.
but cluck is shady in the most delicious of ways and we
could finally afford it, so we spent an hour locating them
and placing the order before reiman and jyeh went out to
pick the food up.
it took forever, and we were famished by the time they got
back.
rohit, being vegetarian, couldn't exactly eat all the
chicken products and had stocked up on mozzarella sticks
and wedges.
he and billy were diligently eating the mozzarella when
rohit spits something out and extracts a little red pill
from the styrofoam carton.
"anthrax!" screams billy, who has been complaining for a matter of
days that he is dying from anthrax, and ms. rabin jumps up and tells
everyone to drop everything and go wash their hands and
there are reiman and jason, rolling on their asses.
the container is peppered with advil and soon
we're all throwing the pills at each other and laughing
hysterically.

mike has been an issue in great circulation recently.
he isn't really attractive to a serious degree.
he's the kind of guy whose personality makes him more attractive than
his looks themselves.
and until last week, we had some kind of mutual hate thing
going on; i guess it's easier to be jokingly mean to people
than to be genuinly nice.
late last week, however, he started acting quite decent,
and especially decent the past few days.
i don't know anything about my mental state right now in
terms of hook-ups or relationships; i know i'd like to be in a
relationship, i can't think of a time that i wouldn't, but would i
think the same way of any other guy with whom i was developing a
friendship?
i mean, i used to think of karam in that way, something
that would clearly have been a very hazardous mistake.
i ended up spending a lot of time with him today also,
between classes and then afterwards during the few hours of
parents conferences that we were in KSC selling hill
weekend shirts (the shirts, by the way, are hot, and being
as broke as i am i can't afford a single one but i will
purchase them as soon as i have any kind of income).
the invite-a-friend would be a great opportunity to test my
interest in him, and perhaps his interest in me, but i really think
that it would be more fun if i invited a friend that i knew i
could be relaxed and comfortable with no matter what my
mood or situation.
i do know i was really excited every night this week at the
prospect of mike coming to the office to hang out and that i was
really happy when he did.
but i am first to admit that i can be a flighty person and
don't want to give this more weight than i think it should
be accorded.

sleep is catching up with me.
i do need to get so much of this out and i don't want to
take off the fantastic sweater i'm wearing and i'd like to speak to
people online after they get in from their friday nightedness but i
can't pry my eyes open for too much longer so sleeping is something i
must do.
maybe i'll dream of mike.
or maybe i'll have my strange steve reed dream again...




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