VAMYR GUARDIAN ANGEL

Shadow
2001-10-26 10:58:09 (UTC)

THOUGHTS

"BLACK SUNRISE"

I SIT HERE LOCKED INSIDE THIS PAIN.
RECALLING ALL THE FEARS AND SHAME THAT I'VE LIVED WITH.
I HID BEHIND A MASK OF LIES,
AND TOOK FOR GRANTED ALL THAT WAS BEFORE ME.

AND I CAN ONLY WONDER WHAT SIN I AM ACCOUNTABLE FOR?
WHAT CRIME I COMMITTED TO ENDURE THIS TORMENT.
THIS DISEASE THAT MAKES MY BODY ACHE.
WHY DO I HAVE THIS INSIDE?

EVERYTHING I DO,
IS FOR REASONS UNCLEAR.
ALL THE THINGS I GAVE,
JUST TO HEAR THEIR LIES.

THIS CURSED EXISTENCE IS FALLING WEAK,
I AM SO FAR GONE AND YET STLL MEEK.
I SIT AND WATCH THE RAIN POURING DOWN,
LIKE THE TEARS ON MY FACE, AND HERS.

ANOTHER INFECTED,
BUT A CURE WITHIN HER OWN SELF.
I JUST WISH I COULD FIND,
THAT WHICH I LACK.

MY ARMS ARE EMPTY.
MY SOUL IS COLD.
MY HEART IS TORN,
BUT NO LONGER BLEEDING.

AND I AM SEEKING THE SOLACE I'VE FOUND,
IN HER LOVING EMBRACE.
THE COLD BREEDS PENANCE,
BUT I AM ALREADY DAMNED.

MY MIND IS WARPED AND OLD.
MY HEART RECOVERING AND HAPPY.
MY SOUL IS CRAVING FAITH,
AND MY BODY IS NUMB TO ALL,
EXCEPT HER.

I SAY ALL THIS.
I FEEL ALL THIS.
AND I CAN'T EVEN BREATHE.
I NEED HELP,........
I NEED HER.


-SHADOW