OhBaby It Is Me

MY SO-CALLED LIFE
2001-10-25 01:05:36 (UTC)

And Still

I have no clue what I want my life to be. I guess I
want Jeff back, I take that back. I know I want Jeff back
and everyday that I am not with him is excruciating.
Angela told him that I was still head over heels in love
with him and he said something about me still having his
hat. So when he walked into my lunch, I called him over
and told him that I would give him back his hat tomorrow.
And he said thank you. So by this time tomorrow I will
have no reason to look at him, to talk to him, or
anything. By this time tomorrow I will have NOTHING to do
with the person I am completely in love with. I need to
talk to him and put all the cards on the table. Even if
it's only for him to turn it over. I want to. I’m gonna
get a drop dead gorgeous outfit and knock his socks off
tomorrow when I hand him his hat and tell him I’m still in
love with him. I don't know how this is gonna work but I’m
gonna put everything into it.
Then today my best friend announced to me that she was
going back out with her forbidden boyfriend. Who just
happened to come to my house tonight with my little
sisters’ boyfriend. We were all on the swing set and
Chris' b/f asked my why he always went out with my
friends. And me being the joker I am said that it was b/c
he liked me and was using my friends to get closer to me,
and he didn't protest. Is that wrong? I should read up on
that. I don't know if I have anything else to say so maybe
this is a good time for my song;


The faster we're falling
We're stopping and stalling
We're running in circles again
Just as things we're looking up
You said it wasn't good enough
But still we're trying one more time
Maybe we're just trying to hard
When really it's closer than it is too far

Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Instead of going under

Seems like each time
I'm with you I loose my mind
Because I'm bending over backwards to relate
It's one thing to complain
But when you're driving me insane
Well then I think it's time that we took a break
Maybe we're just trying to hard
When really it's closer than it is too far

Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Instead of going under
Instead of going under

I can't sit back and wonder why
It took so long for this to die
And I hate it when you fake it
You can't hide it you might as well embrace it
So believe me it's not easy
It seems that something's telling me

Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Cause I'm in too deep
and I'm trying to keep
Up above in my head
instead of going under
Instead of going under
instead of going under
instead of going under again
instead of going under
instead of going under again
instead of going under again

(In too deep by Sum 41)