VAMYR GUARDIAN ANGEL

Shadow
2001-10-25 00:46:20 (UTC)

I NEED TO SIT DOWN

OKAY, THIS DAY JUST GETS BETTER AND WEIRDER EVERY
MINUTE! NOT LING AFTER MY "FAMILY" GOT HOME, AN OLD
GIRLFRIEND CALLED AND ASKED TO SPEAK TO ME. IT WAS NICOLE
DIBBLE, AND LIKE ALWAYS, SHE HAD A PROBLEM. SHE HASN'T
CALLED ME IN OVER A YEAR AND NOW SHE DOES WHEN SHE'S
BREAKING DOWN.
WELL, HER PROBLEM WAS THAT SHE GOT ENGAGED RECENTLY
AND DIDN'T KNOW IF HER FIANCE' WAS USING HER OR NOT. NICOLE
SAID THAT SHE GIVES HER AFFECTION, BUT SHE KEEPS ASKING
NICOLE FOR FAVORS. THAT'S RIGHT, NICOLE TURNED LESBO. SHE'S
ENGAGED TO A GIRL. THIS DAY AND AGE, IT;S COMMON, BUT I WAS
STILL A LITTLE STARTLED TO SAY THE LEAST.
I KNOW I DIDN'T TURN HER LESBO, SHE'S HAD SEVERAL
SCREWED RELATIONSHIPS SINCE ME, SO I'M ASSUMING SHE
GOT "TIRED OF PUTTING UP WITH MEN'S SHIT."(IT'S A KEY CHAIN
SHE HAD.) ANYWAY, I GOTTA THINK OF SOME ADVICE FOR HER AND
WRITE IT DOWN TO GIVE TO HER TOMORROW.NEXT SUBJECT,
PLEASE!!!!!!
I MISS MY ANGEL.I KEEP WANDERING," WOULD I REALLY HAVE
LOST FOR HER?" IT'S A DUMB QUESTION TO ASK CUZ I GET THE
SAME ANSWER EVERY TIME, BUT I FIND MYSEKF DOING AND SAYING
THINGS I NEVER IMAGINED I WOULD. SO IT'S MORE OF SHOCK THAT
I WOULD DO IT, RATHER THAN DO I LOVE HER THAT MUCH AS TO DO
THAT FOR HER. OF COURSE I WOULD'VE. I'D DO A LOT MORE FOR
HER, TOO.
OH, I'M SORRY. I DIDN'T TELL YOU WHAT I WOULD'VE LOST.
TODAY AT LUNCH, JEREMY(A GUY THAT WANTS MY
ANGEL/GIRLFRIEND, BUT CAN'T HAVE HER....SHE'S MINE I TELL
YA! ALL MINE!-I'M SELFISH WHEN IT COMES TO SHARING. I DON'T
LIKE TO, AND I WON'T! I REFUSE TO.)BUT, ANYWAY, HE CAME UP
TO ME AT LUNCH AND WANTED TO JUST PLANT HIS FIST IN MY
FACE, BUT HE PUSHED PAST ME AND TALKED TO MY BABY. ASKED
HER IF THERE WAS ANYTHING BETWEEN THEM. SHE SAID ONLY
FRIENDSHIP AND THAT WAS SKETCHY. SO HE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING,
BUT I SAW THE LOOK IN HIS EYES, HE WANTED TO SO BAD. HE
NEEDS TO JUST FUCK OFF.
DAMNIT! MY STEP-DAD NEEDS TO FUCK OFF AS WELL1 HE'S
BITCHIN'AT ME AGAIN. LATER, AND SWEET DREAMS MY LITTLE
GIRL. SLEEP WELL.


-SHADOW