VAMYR GUARDIAN ANGEL

Shadow
2001-10-24 11:15:15 (UTC)

HAPPINESS.....HOW SWEET IT IS!

I AM IN AN EXTREMELY GOOD MOOD......AND IT'S THE DAY
AFTER!!!! I TRIED TO TYPE THIS LAST NIGHT BUT MY STEP-DAD
WAS BEING BITCHY, AND WOULDN'T LET ME ON!(FUCKHEAD)
OKAY, NOW DON'T HAVE A HEART ATTACK, BUT GUESS
WHAT...........I'M HAPPY! YES, I AM TELLING THE TRUTH, I'M
NOT JST SAYIN' IT SO YOU'LL GO AWAY.
HERE'S THE REASON FOR MY RED EARS AND UN-ERASIBLE
SMILE.YESTERDAY, I WOKE UP DREADING THE TASK OF TELLING
DIANE IT'S OVER, AND THOUGHT THE DAY TO BE CURSED. (BUT OH
HOW WRONG I WAS!)
I GOT TO SCHOOL, HUGGED MY G.A. AND SAT THERE WITH HER
FOR A FEW MINUTES. SHE WAS TIRED, AS WAS I. WHEN I SAW
DIANE WALK UP, I TOLD MY G.A. TO WISH ME LUCK AND ASKED
DIANE TO COME WITH ME TO MY LOCKER. I GAVE HER THE NOTE AND
SHA ASKED;"SO, WHAT'D YOU DECIDE ABOUT US?" I LOOKED AT HER
FOR A MINUTE AND HATED MYSELF BUT I ANSWERED HER,"I DIDN'T
DECIDE THERE WAS GOIN' TO BE AN US. I'M NOT COMING BACK
THIS TIME." SHE LET HER HEAD DROP AND THEN WALKED OFF.
OKAY, SO THERE'S THAT OUTTA THE WAY.
ANYWAY, OUR SCEDULE WAS ALL SCREWY YESTERDAY CUZ OF
THE TCAPS, SO I GOT TO SEE MY ANGEL ALOT MORE THAN USUAL.
AT LUNCH, SHE USED ME FOR A PILLOW AGAIN AND I THOUGHT SHE
WAS ASLEEP, BUT IT TURNS OUT THAT SHE WAS FAKING THE WHOLE
TIME! SO I THOUUGHT SHE DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT ME KISSING HER
CHEEK TO TRY TO WAKE HER UP.WELL, IT DON'T MATTER. IWAS
PERFECTLY CONTENT JUST HOLDING HER WHIE SHE "SLEPT" I FELT
THE ALTERNATING RYTHMS OF OUR BREATHING WHILE SHE LAY THERE
AND JUST LET MY MIND WANDER,.....VISIONS OF ME AND HER
PLAYED IN MY HEAD IN VARIOUS SITUATIONS, AND EACH ONE
BROUGHT A SMILE TO MY FACE. (SHIT, ONLY 15 MORE MINUTES
BEFORE I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL!)
OKAY, HERE'S THE ICING ON THE CAKE. WE WALKED UP TO
THE LIBRARY TOGETHER AND WHILE THERE, DIANE PISSED ME OFF.
I HALFWAY KICKED A TILED THING AND WALKED OFF TO THE
BATHROOM TO CALM DOWN. I THEN WROTE" MY SACRIFICE"
EXPRESSING MY CURRNET EMOTIONS, AND THEN WALKED OUT TO
JENNIFER. SHE TOOK MY ARM AND LED MEAROUND THE CORNER AND
HELD ME FOR HAT SEEMED TO BAE AN HOUR OR TWO. ASKED IF IWAS
CALM, AND I SAID YES. WHILE LOOKING AT HER A ND HOLDING HER
THERE, I WANTED TO KISS HER SO BAD. SHE WAS SO GOOD TO ME,
EEYTHING I EVER DREAMED FOR, IS EMBODIED IN HER. SHE'S MY
DREAM GIRL GIVEN FORM. I RASED HER CHIN UP TO FACE ME AND
KISSED HER. I WOULD DESCRIBE IT, BUT THE WORDS I HAVE TO
WORK WITH ARE TOO WEAK AND BARELY AMPLE AT BEST. LET'S JUST
SAY MY EARS TURNED RED, AND THAT'S NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE!!!!
I NEVER WANTED SOMEONE MORE THAN I DO HER. I DIDN'T
WANT IT TO END, BUT HER DAD SHOWED UP 'BOUT EIGHT MINUTES
EARLY! EIGHT MORE MINUTES WE COULDA HAD. OH WELL, WE'LL
HAVE PLENTY OF TIME TO MAKE UP FOR IT. BUT I CHERRISH
EVERY MOMENT I'M WITH HER.
SPEAKING OF MOMENTS, MY TIME'S UP.(DAMNIT!DAMNIT!
DAMNIT!) THAT'S O.K., I GET TO GO SEE MY ANGEL/GIRLFRIEND.
I LOVE THAT THOUGHT.


-SHADOW

P.S. DIANE,WHY DID I EVER TORMENT MYSELF WITH HER?
I DON'T KNOW,AND IT DON'T MATTER! I GOT MY BABY AND THAT'S
ALL I NEED.