My problems.
2001-10-24 02:45:28 (UTC)

My Life Is Going Downhill

Things were looking up for me a few days ago. I finally
got the girl of my dreams and everything was becoming
perfect until today. Today she told me that we had to be
just friend and you have no idea the way my heart
crumbled the second after she said that. I thought it
wasn't possible that my one aspiration, my one dream
had just slipped inbetween my fingers like a strain of

She told me that she had to find out who she was and
that she didn't know who she was. She told me that
she needed to get to LIKE herself before she could see
me being with her. She has to become herself before
she can think about me.

Now I am not a cute guy, I am actually not cute at all, but
I have a big heart and I love this girl with all my heart.
She means absolutely everything to me and I have told
her this over and over and over again but my message
is not getting through. She doesn't know who she is
thefefor she can't be with someone that loves her for
who she THINKS he is.

I am at a loss for wods and I have so many emotions
running through my head. Even though she
broke up with me I still LOVE her.

I asked her if she was going to go out with other people
and of course she replied yes because she has to
make mistakes meanwhile I'm knowing that my life is
not complete without her. I am so confused and lost
that I have no idea what is going to happen with my life.
The only thing in life that I had actually strived for has
left me and only wants to be friends.

I hate my life, and I know that nothing will ever get better
because god doesn't like me. He doesn't want to see
my succeed. It's sad to say this but I just want to die, so
all this pain can go away.