Crazy in Blue

As My world Turns

WELL, LETS JUST SAY THAT MY LIFE IS FOREVER CHANGING.
THIS WEEKEND IS A PRIME EXAMPLE. NOW, ME AND ISAIH, WE
HAVE OUR OFF PERIODS, TIMES WHEN WE DON'T TALK OR SPEAK
FOR DAYS ARE WEEKS. AND THEN WE HAVE OUR OWN MOMENTS WHEN
WE HAVE TO BE TOGETHER 24/7. I MISS HIM DURING THE OFF
TIMES, BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT HE NEEDS HIS SPACE. SINCE HE
GOT HIS NEW SIG FIG (THE ASSHOLE), I HAVEN'T SEEN MUCH OF
HIM. BUT ONE NIGHT,WE ACTUALLY TALKED ON THE PHONE, AND
HE ASKED ME WHAT I THOUGHT OF HIM. AND I FINALLY TOLD HIM
THAT I DIND'T LIKE HIM. I THINK THAT HE COULD DO MUCH
BETTER THAN HIM, LIKE ME, BUT THAT IS SO NOT THE POINT.
SO ANYWAY, I DIGRESS. THE BEST THING ABOUT ISIAH IS THE
FACT THAT I KNOW THAT HE LOVES ME. AND HE IS ALWAYS DOING
LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKE ME SMILE, HE'S ACTUALLY A REALLY
GREAT PERSON. SO ON FRIDAY, HE CAME OVER, AND WE WATCHED
THE MUMMY RETURNS, WHICH I HAD NOT SEEN BEFORE, EXCELLENT
MOVIE BY THE WAY. ANYWAY, THAT NIGHT, WE WERE ON THE
PHONE FOREVER. JUST TALKING ABOUT LIFE, AND HOW WE WANTED
IT TO GO. I LOVE THAT BOY, I JUST WISH HE WASN'T BI, THAT
KINDA MESSES THINGS UP FOR ME, YA KNOW.

SO ON SATURDAY, WE FINALLY DECIDED THAT WE WERE GOING TO
GO TO THE TOWNS LOCAL GAY FRIENDLY CLUB, 8765. IT'S NOT A
GAY BAR, OR A GAY CLUB, IT'S GAY FRIENDLY. IT WAS A
DOLLOR SO I SAID WHAT THE HELL, I'LL GO. IT WAS SUCH A
GREAT NIGHT. FIRST, HE PLANNED MY WHOLE OUTFIT, PAID FOR
ME TO GET MY HAIR DONE, AND GAVE ME A GOLD CHAIN OF HIS TO
WEAR. I STILL HAVE IT ON, AND EVERYTIME THAT I THINK
ABOUT HIM, I HAVE SOMETHING THERE THAT I CAN SAY HE GAVE
TO ME. I WISH I COULD EXPALIN IN WORDS HOW MUCH HE MEANS
TO ME, AND YET, THERE ARE NO WORDS. 8765 HAS GREAT MUSIC,
AND THE PEOPLE WERE EXCELLENT. I SAW SOME THINGS I HAD
NEVER SEEN BEFORE, BUT IT WAS OKAY. I KNEW ALOT OF PEOPLE
THERE, AND SOME FOLKS I DIDN'T EXPECT TO SEE THERE, AND
ALOT OF FOLKS THAT I KNEW WERE GOING TO BE THERE. ALOT OF
THE FOLKS FROM MY SCHOOL WERE REALLY UPSET TO SEE US
THERE, BUT HEY, I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING TO THEM, SO IT
DIDN'T MATTER.

ALL OF MY GUY FRIENDS THAT WERE THERE WERE SO SWEET TO ME,
BUT NO ONE WOULD BUY ME A DRINK. I GOT HIT ON AND FONDLED
BY SO MANY PEOPLE, I FELT DIRTY. BUT IN THE BACK OF MY
MIND, I WAS HAPPY ABOUT IT. THE HIGHLITE OF THE NIGHT WAS
THE DRAG SHOW, AT LEAST FOR ME. STEVE WAS IN IT, AND HE
WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOO GREAT. HE WAS A DANCER, AND THE BOY WAS
WORKING IT. AFTER THAT, WE TOOK MY FRIEND ALIZE' HOME,
AND THEN WE WENT BACK TO ISIAH'S HOUSE. I ASKED TO SLEEP
OVER AT ISIAH'S APT, AND HE SAID YES. IT WAS GREAT. I
LOVED WAKING UP, AND LOOKING OVER AT HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF
THE NIGHT. I KNOW HE DOENS'T REALIZE THAT ANYTIME I SLEEP
OVER, I NEVER SLEEP, BUT THAS AIGHT, THAT'LL BE OUR LIL
SECRET! WE TALKED ABOTU WHAT HE WAS GOING TO DO ABOUT THE
ASSHOLE, AND STEVE, AND JUST US.

WE ARE HAVING AN ON TIME, AND I DON'T LET THOSE SLIP AWAY,
BUT I KNOW THAT I AM STARTING TO BLOW OF MY OTHER FRIENDS
IN ORDER TO BE AT HIS BECK AND CALL. I NEED TO STOP DOING
THAT, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW. ALL I KNOW IS, THIS WEEKEND
WAS GREAT, AND I AM HOPING THAT I HAVE MORE TIMES LIKE
THAT. TILL THE NEXT TIME MY LIFE CHANGES,

Till Evilness Lurks again,

Crazy In Blue AKA BLUDRAMA