Lovepeaceandrockandroll

The life of Gabriella
2001-10-22 16:10:05 (UTC)

10/22/01 Raven again

I sorta want to go back to indiana. That is what i am
wrestling with now since the air force thing doesn't seem
to be happening anytime soon. So if it does happen they
can wait till spring. I guess. But i dunno if i should
stay up here or go back to my mother. IF she goes to
counsling and if she stays on this track she JUST might
actually be my real mother and that would be cool. Plus I
can be around Leiah and the baby Raven. And be around the
other Raven. I miss him sooooooooooo much and if i am
there i may have a chance with him. If not then i would
just die and be friends with him. And try to get to the
point of having a chance. I want to show him i have really
changed and If i am going to counsling that might provoke
him to actaully want to be with me again and plus he would
probably end up needing to come with me lord knows my
counsler will want that to happen. I could go twice a
week . . Once with my mother and sorting out those problems
and once by myself. And i know how counslers are . . they
want to see the problem. Raven. Man i miss him . . . .I
wil get back together with him. Trust me one day. I also
have to figure out this matt problem. Man i am gonna be
screwing with him and I dont want to do that. I paniced. I
guess i dont want to be tied down with anyone right now
besides brandon. He is the only one i really wanted to be
tied down with. NOw that i look at it when i was with
others i wanted to be with others. But with Raven I NEVER
WANTED TO BE WITH SOMEON ELSE. Man what a hold he has on
me.

till later

Gabriella




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