lilith.

im speechless.

Subject: Re:
Date: Sat, 20 Oct 2001 20:38:00 0800



Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it,
the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly,
it would come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love's only special when you give it to someone
who is worth. So take your time and choose the
best....



Nis dear..
I hope u understand what i'm gettin at.I
noe that u r hurtin real bad rite now..trust me i do
noe.Mahesh isn't my first b/f mind u.The hurt of the previous one is
still there...But this is notabt me..its abt u.Honestly, i dun think
that Mard truly gives a damn abt u..ya,ouch that hurts..but
really..if u actually meant somethin to her,she could hav easily gone
up to chan and told her that her mom was bullshittin and said that u
two were juz very gd frens and that her mom is juz ultra paranoid.But
hey..she didn't.And it was damn good timin for her to screw things
up..rite b4 the O's..

Nis..i dun mean to put her down real bad or
anythin,but think abt it.Let's face it..after the O's..Mard's gonna
leave..she doesn't have to face u anymore...so she won't have to feel
guilty for the rest of her life for doin this to ya..she won't have
to see you..at all.Damn gd timin Nis..damn good timin.She fools
around wif ya and at the end of the year,she easily lets this happen
so that her concience is cleared.Prove me wrong..but what Mrs.Ngin
said was true.I hate noein that u r so screwed so i hope that u will
take all these to mind and reason things out for urself.I haven't
exactly put things in a tactful way..and i'm sorry if i've hurt u in
any way.Hate me for this..i dun care..juz want u to b ok..tha's all i
need.Take care of urself.I luv ya and will always b here for u no
matter what.

Luv u girl..realli do.
-ma.

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what am i supposed to say? that inches of bones in me wants to think
that what ma said is true??? prove me wrong. please prove all dats
written wrong. god. why does it hurt so much. is all dis true? is
it?? fuck. it is really fuck.
why is eveybody seeing it ma's way? why am i de only one havin
optimistic thots? or is it true what dey say, im in denial? fuck.
prove me wrong.

please.

-lith