OhBaby It Is Me

MY SO-CALLED LIFE
2001-10-20 20:00:56 (UTC)

And After All That

SO, this is what is goin on:

Yesterday, when no teacher showed up for my 7th period
class, I went to the cafateria. There just happend to be
Shaun, Steph, John, and Aaron. Aaron was sitting with his
head down and his hood up. So I whispered in his ear,-Come
to my house tonight, you don't have a g/f anymore- just
kidding around, and he said,-I don't know if I can- and my
response was -Why, b/c I'm a senior?-

Chris and Aaron are over

We took the senior picture and all my people were all
standing together and a boy I know from a class where I
hate the teacher, came over all alone. So I told him he
could stand between me and Shaun, and I think I made Shaun
mad. I really didn't mean to, but if it was me, I would
have liked him to do it for me. So DON'T BE MAD SHAUN!!

Oh and my 'love life.' Well the whole freshmen thing is
over. I had Boc go over to him at lunch and say that he
was representing me and that I couldn't go out with anyone
that was willing to do what he was for snowboarding. So
that is over.

At CobbleStone Thursday night Neil was there. Neil is the
guy I met the first time I went there. Or as Chris and I
know him better,(make that 6!) And Jake and Matt were
there. Matt is my husband, 'nuf said. And Jake, well we
were in a room alone and I showed him the stoneless gold
ring Chriss gave me and he took my hand, kissed it, and
told me it was beautiful. I was suprised for some odd
reason.

I also was suprised to find that my still beloved X, was in
fact, not dating the girl with the same name as me. I
really just want to pick up the phone and call him. When
and if he answered I would like to tell him that I am still
madly in love with him and that I learned my lesson and
that I want him back. But I know that would never happen
b/c he has moved on w/o me.

My birthday was good. I got 2 CDs from my sister, 1 from
my mother, along with a coat(that I think I am allergic
too), and a box of chocolate. My daddy got me a vanity,
but there is no room for it in my room so I think I'm gonna
take the money and buy either a hanger thing or some more
shelves. I also got 100 dollars to spend at the mall.

And here is the song of the day:

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You say
I only hear what I want to
You say
I talk so all the time
so

And I thought what I felt was simple
and I thought that I don't belong
and now that I am leaving
now I know that I did something wrong
cause I missed you
Yeah, I missed you

And you say
I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard
I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to anyone anywhere
I don't understand if you really care
I'm only hearing negative
no, no, no, bad

So I
I turned the radio on
I turned the radio up
and this woman was singing my song
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, this is not that
I think that I'm throwing
but I'm thrown

And I thought I'd live forever
but now I'm not so sure
You try to tell me that I'm clever
but that won't take me anyhow
or anywhere
with you

You said that I was naive and I thought that I was strong
I thought hey I can leave I can leave
But now I know that I was wrong
cause I missed you

You said I caught you cause I want you and one day I'll let
you go
You try to give away a keeper
or keep me cause you know you're just scared to lose

And you say stay
And you say
I only hear what I want to

Oh, there is more. I am starting to fall for this kid in my
studyhall. I think he's a freshmen, so that makes things
interesting. But there's just this thing about quite guys that turns
me on.

(Stay by LL)