Mars Hotel
2001-10-20 05:23:31 (UTC)


of blaming myself for everything

tired of my sorry dependence on others
only to fall flat on my face
after being tossed aside
and to be picked up
when needed once again
to have everyone in the
world tell me their problems
but to have no one to listen to mine

of a family life
gradually falling apart
coming back to an almost
completely broken home

everyone's depending on me
to not hurt them
to take care of them
good daughter
good friend
good student

tired of ever mounting pressure

always apologizing
to unopen ears
wanting only to hear what they want
instead of what I say

but there's no deliverence
there's no one left
in this selfish, god-forsaken hell