spitfire

Realizations of a 24yr old convict
2001-10-18 09:59:19 (UTC)

FUCK

Fucking mad,so mad, fucking rage been seeing red all day
trying to convince myself Im cool but Im not, totally
irational got the call today the no action on the early
discharge fuck another year here at least another year.
Everythings done here thres really nothing left to
accomplish here except a few minor detials witch cant be
taken on till the parole is outta my life. Fuck you know
until I actully got the call I didnt really know how hard
this would hit me now though just the thought of wasting
another year out here FUCK!!! bought some CDs cause you
know you start getting a little down buy some tunes simple
little things makes it all good but no just straight drove
ever get that feeling that the music just cant seem to get
loud enuff. Fuck what now petty project to pass the time
finsh the mustang, stock more cash,fall in ove with some
stupid ratthead and wind up here domesticated for the rest
of my life I know really negitive outlook but hey I got
fucked. say what you want but I jumpped through ever
fucking hoop and smiled so fuck that. They didnt even do
any research into what Ive been doing just violent offender
and that was it. Some bitch in some office whos never even
met me or seen what Ive been doing makes the call what
kinda justice is that.
really my head is spinning so fast and im fucking distraut
cause you know none of it was real till they called.
You know what parole is, its just this feling of aleinnation
thats it fuck black chinesse mexican save all that bullshit
about predujice against you. I know its fucked up ra ra ra
fucking cry me a river but it aint shit cause they look at
you and think well he might be a criminal or
gangbanger "might" theres some slack that comes with that
word try being branded a savage where it becomes no doubt
just fact that your some one to be feared. ITS FUCKED.
FUCKED now the questionis what to do cause it was all up in
the air before but now its just cold realization of truth
another year of this bullshit.
Thanks for letting me vent with love and respect
Still unbroken just pissed off
SPITFIRE




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