marinabreeze

as the Oval turns
2001-10-18 05:35:23 (UTC)

I Wanna Cry :(

Song in my head: Cling and Clatter - Lifehouse

I am so depressed. I don't know what the heck my problem
is. Okay, I'm behind on bills, followup, and RA programs,
my computer is screwed up and I need to reinstall everything
(but my Windows disk is missing-darn), and because of that
I missed an RA meeting, I don't know what I want to do with
my life once I graduate, I want someone who doesn't want me
for crap, I'm broke, I'm still fat and alone. Okay, it
could be much worse, no doubt, and I thank God for that, but
I'm still depressed and I just want to cry. I would love to
just be out of school, married with 2.3 kids. Yeah, that's
a hard life, but truthfully, that's what I want to do with
my life...so sue me! But I'm closer to getting out of this
school with 5,000 core requirements than finding a good man
that loves God and will accept me for who I am. Oh, this
sucks!!! I'm going to bed, just to wake up in 6 hours and
go to class to see Broke Pacey who I still like for some odd
reason but he can't see beyond the way I look. Yeah, it's
been two whole years yet he's so damn shallow who I am as a
person still doesn't mean anything to him. One day he'll
get it, I hope. I just hope he doesn't have to learn the
hard way. But I highly dislike him more every single day.
Arrrgh!!!!!!!




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