Rekabb

3: God !!!

GOOODDDDDDDDD!!! i hate my fucking life... argh!!! i cant
stand this fucking depression any fucking more... im gonna
go fucking get a gun and shoot myself just to make the
thinking stop!!!

sorry...

damnit!

i think my problem is that i keep thinking in my head... i
cant stop thinking... and all i fucking thinking about is
killing my self... the more and more i think it the more
and more i want to... its so annoying cause i dont really
want to kill myself... i just want to stop thinking... i
really want some help... but i hate counsilers and shit...
im kinda scared to talk to anyone... well not really scared
as... most ppl my age cant relate at all... like 4 or so of
my friends would understand... fuck... and i get nauceous
everytime i think about that shit so i live my life in
nauscia and its so annoying... god... and its bad enough im
not even sure about myself... damnit its so fucking fucking
annoying! oh well... i just really want to talk to kristina
but i talk to her so much im afraid im gonna worry her...
but shes the only one id talk to... oh well... when MSN
gets back up ill give her a call...

at least i have this diary to throw some of my thots out on
to... hehe... thank god... if only i could stay hooked to
it 24/7... hehe...