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2001-10-15 14:04:02 (UTC)

Okay, well, now that I have..

Okay, well, now that I have gone through so many days
without writing in this damn thing, I feel as though I
should update you...
Basically, any situation with any guy that I was associated
with the past two weeks, has gone to hell. A fiery,
horrible hell....
First off, Eric and I have been relatively okay...he keeps
telling me that he wants to get back together, and I don't
know that I am confortable with that, so I just keep
putting it off...I am sorta having doubts about him, he
told me he wants to move in with one of his friends, and we
were supposed to move in together at the end of this year,
so I am not sure what to think on that....I mean, does he
or does he not want a serious relationship with me? He says
he does, but he doesn't act like it. The weekend after our
three year anniversary, he went to a strip club, even
though he knew it would hurt me and piss me off...this is
two days after he asked me to get back together. Hmmm. I
wasn't very convinced that he wanted to..and not only did
he go to the strip club, he got a fucking lap dance...yeah
he really loves me alot.
Matt, the tall 6'8 guy, I thought that I really wanted him,
and that I really wanted him to like me...Well, now he just
seems kinda annoying...He is sweet, don't get me wrong, but
I just don't feel that connection between us like I
should. Strange that I am the one about to dump the guy
that everyone thinks is a player. And it's not even like
he did anything wrong.
Tom Compton, the basketball player that I was talking
about, we had fun and I spent the night in his room, but we
didn't do anything but sleep...which was nice...okay there
was some making out, but it stopped, and we just slept.
And he is the only guy I could sleep with that could manage
to hold me the entire night,without me being really
uncomfortable...But he seems to have lost interest in me or
something, I really hope he didn't just want to make out
with me. I really wish that he had real feelings for me,
and would show them to me...but maybe I am just dreaming
with this one.
There is another guy that things have gone wrong with...his
name is brian, but i don't know what to do about him. he is
dating a girl who goes to UD, but they aren't very
serious,and I don't know if he is willing to date girls
from XU also...it's possible..i hope so...I think he may
have some sort of interest in me but i am not sure, he may
be going to the new found glory concert with a girl that I
kinda know/met named sarah, so maybe i will talk to her and
tag along:)...
I really do like Tom, though...